Joke Thirty Two: The Truth is buried deep | Level Four

[crazy_clownwoman]

 Hey Mayfield! Just needed to get a few things off my chest.

My real name's not Harley Quinn, It's Harleen Quinzel. I used to be a doctor but then I fell in love with a criminal and broke him out of the asylum. Sometimes I don't know why I keep going back to him. He hits me and throws me around when he's angry. One time he threw me out a window. But I always come back, because I'm a doormat like that..... I just don't like to think about it. 

I was almost cured once. But then a bunch of accidents happened and I ended up losin' it again. I still wish it had worked out. Sometimes I'm just really tired of running away from the cops and Batman all the time. 

I almost killed Batman before. It would have worked too, but he tricked me into getting the Joker there. That's when Mr. J threw me out a window. Because I didn't get the joke. 

Sometimes I worry that everything isn't a joke and that I'm just doing horrible things to people. But I don't realize because I've lost my mind. 

....I really hate this place. I'd rather spend the rest of my life in Arkham then be here another month. Everyone leaves me and I just don't want to be alone.

Comments

[elevatoravatar.livejournal.com]

"I to some extent understand... My own quest will last possibly till humanity itself burns out in a blaze of ennui and chaos, still, is it not possible that recognizing these things will enable us to understand why we bind ourselves to these projects?"

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

I dunno.

I'm pretty sure I'm going to get killed if I keep doin' that stuff. So I guess it doesn't really matter.

[poisonivyforyou.livejournal.com]

...Do you need me to come over?

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

Yes.

stage 2 at the moment

[nosoul-nomind.livejournal.com]

[There's a lot to this confession, and Barton doesn't even know what to make of it. What was with all these sudden weird confessions?

But she can't help but focus on one thing at the moment.]

I'm sorry. Um... did you say... Batman? And Joker?

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

Yeah.

[notasidedick]

I'm probably one of the last people you want to talk to. But...you want company? I'm free. If you want to talk or even want company Harleen, I can come over or we can meet up somewhere.

[WHAT DO. NOT SURE. BE NICE I GUESS.]

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

[....]

.....You're not gonna laugh at me are you?

[crusthatecean.livejournal.com]

[He has no idea who you are but those sound like some bad romance problems there.]

Romance is a funny thing like that. Trolls are always involving themselves in situations that are fucked up. It seems humans aren't any different.

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

Suppose so.

[So much bad romance.]

What do trolls do about them?

[numanstan.livejournal.com]

... Out a window?

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

......yeah.

[brbgoing2russia.livejournal.com]

It's not a joke, Harley. Nothing he does is a funny joke. It wasn't when he.... shot her, and it's not funny what he does to you.

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

...[There's a long pause and a part of her she didn't even realize...]


.......I know.

Guess I was just nuts not to have seen it before.

[gotmorbucks]

[The... Joker? As in the Joker? And she fought Batman?!]

You almost killed him? Really?

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

...Yeah. Came really close too.

Closer then Mr. J ever did.

[putmeinstitches.livejournal.com]

[Loki sounds thoughtful.]

Some people would call that loyalty. Others would call it stupid. The question is...are you happy, the way things are?

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

[There's a pause. Normally she'd say of course and defend her puddin'....but there's always been a part of her that knew...]

No.

I just make myself think I am.

[glowing-science.livejournal.com]

...

[Ema had no idea about any of this. It turns her stomach a little to hear--why is it that all of the Gotham villains have reasons to feel pathos? Not that Ema necessarily needs it, in Harley's case.]

Listen, I know you don't know me very well, but you listened to me when I was struggling. It's only fair that I do the same for you. We need to stick together, right?

You're not alone.

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

[Most people don't. She never admits most of it to herself. And hell, probably only the people from Gotham know about how her "puddin" treats her.]

No, I guess not.

[Just...sad clown.]

[puzzlerprince.livejournal.com]

...he threw you out of a window?!

[Eddie knows that Harley's relationship with the Joker is far from ideal, but this is a new detail altogether.]

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

Yup.

That one really hurt.

[jaws5sonofjaws.livejournal.com]

Hey, don't beat yourself up.

You're awesome and helped me realize that I can be awesome even without super powers.

And that asshole crook boyfriend of yours better not show up in Mayfield or I'll beat his face into the concrete!

You are one of the coolest people I've met here, and... and you're nice.

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

.....

[....aww....See Vince, this is how you white knight.]

Th-thanks...that really means a lot...

[a-crazygirl.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, honey, I had no idea.

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

Yeah...well I don't really talk about it much.

....or admit it to myself even.

[heart-x-strings.livejournal.com]

He...threw you out of a window?

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

.....yeah.


That one hurt.

[uranophobe.livejournal.com]

[okay let's pretend it's level four time because hell naw would he be saying this shit on anything lower]

He shouldn't be alive.

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

......Crane?

[electrowhipit]

[ He really wishes he could come inside and give her a hug right now ):

Instead he'll settle for calling through the window ]

... Harley? I'm outside, if you need me.

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

[A bit later she comes outside.]

Hi ...

[notlikethemovie.livejournal.com]

O-oh my gosh, Harley....

[This is one of the most depressing things she's ever heard. She kind of wants to hug her so hard right now, but that would be incredibly, painfully awkward.

What do you even say to stuff like this? She's not the kind of person that could really offer any help, could she?]

[crazyclownwoman.livejournal.com]

Yeah...heh.

Guess I really am nuts.